Wondering...

when i look at you

i feel at loss

for not having you

those soft locks

those kissable lips

those warm hands

those mesmerizing eyes

but

i feel happy

with who i have now

coz i dont have to

deal with you

in that special way

i know

it wont be as easy

it wont be as difficult

it wont be as bitter

it wont be as sweet

it wont be the same

as i’m experiencing now

because

i’m contented

with him

just thinking

just wondering

what’ll happen

if i had you

instead

:)