Losing Myself

i wanna go!

i’m tired of this shite

i’m tired of hoping

i’m tired of disappointment

i’m tired of pretending

i need to be myself

i need to be outside

i need to see those people

i need the push to live

the way i want to live

but

this world is not about

what i want.

i’m still here

i’m still afraid

i’m still pretending

i’m still dreaming

and

i’m still stupid

too stupid

that even

expressing myself

become the hardest task

in my life