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Wednesday, August 24, 2011

i changed my blog ! ! ! ! ^ ^

to this one :


Friday, August 12, 2011

time passes, the clock ticks, life goes on

but in this sugary sweetness
of a piece of life
i'd want to linger

time to stop
hands to halt
life frozen

glee preserves
grief fades

to be beautiful

how does it feel to be beautiful?
to be loved at the first sight
to be adored without you even trying
to be liked just with a glimpse
even babies like perfect facial figure
thus in world the favour is much more
for beautiful people

sure, pretty people have problems too
but they dont have the additional ones
rooted from worries about looks

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

in midst the cold night

i snuck into his room
hoping for a warm sleepy cuddle
or a session of pillow talk
or maybe something else 
for the cold night

i just hope i realized before that
that i forgot
he mentioned to me before
that he switched room with his gay brother

after that night
would not stop saying
"i'm feeling so dirty"
complete with a glare
everytime he sees me

speak to me

don't you know it's killing me
when you stared at me down the hall
with no words out of your lips

don't you know i'm going crazy
everytime i sit in class 
and see you in front of me

don't you realize
i'm mourning
every second
i'm breathing

coz we're stuck 
in a forbidden garden
that's just
too sweet to escape from

Friday, July 29, 2011

mr k,
making up with you
the hardest
yet the best
i've ever made

Tuesday, July 19, 2011


i dont really intend
to go against my faith 
or anything

i'm not a pro

i just love the artsy side 
of it


and that's all
i'm just a lover
not a supporter

very sincerely written
and very consciously thought

Monday, July 18, 2011

Saturday, July 2, 2011

a very cold day

i lied on my bed
all day long
it was freezing
much to my distaste
even to set my foot 
onto the marbled floor
or to get out of the warm blanket

i peeked at the clock
five minutes to two
he should be here now
with worried look on his face
exaggerating things on his mind
on why
i missed class today
a fire?
an accident?
a mishap?
his paranoia
always amuse me
even more so
when they are 
of how much he cares


i've always envied the scenes in the movies

 the characters always seems to be able to find a place they can call their own

some sort of a secret place

where they can lie all day
where they can scream as they like
where thay can do whatever they want

though i'm never really
always surrounded by people
such place
is a blessings
from the sneer
from the giggles
from the insults

because in their eyes
i'm no more
than just a retard
the weird ones
ones you must avoid
and leave unintended
 things i feel
not to be argued
in a way
they're all right

We all have a little red bird inside us. 
Some people, 
like me, 
lock their little bird away so nothing can harm it. 

But It's best to let that little bird fly.
A bird that hasn't flown hasn't lived.

taken directly from here

Friday, July 1, 2011

when i talk to you

i was hoping for a nice talk
where i'm able to laugh or smile
a little bit
not a session for you to 
bitch about others

i know all too well
world isn't all about happiness
i learnt the hard way
but dear
if we dont create bits and pieces of
happiness of our own
wont our relationship turn sour and bitter?
from all the words you said of others?

i know you're tired
i know you're frustrated
so sometimes
i thought i'd just ask you not to call
for sometime
you can cool off
i can stay not frustrated
but because there
you're all alone
i dont have the heart to 
let you went through it all

but dear
cut down on your
emotional frenzy
of others
when we talk

he looked at me again

and this time
i was wondering
if what jessie said
was true

if he does
bat for other team
why'd he still
looking my way?
jessie seemed to 
understand what i was thinking

giving me a clean kiss 
on the cheek, she
smiled at me
"he's so into you
once in a while
don't you think it's great
to have a guy friend?
don't worry
i'm yours
and you're still mine"

i get it
i looked his way
and smiled

wow... soooo true.......... : )

Saturday, June 25, 2011

sometimes i wonder if

i'm drowned too deep
while you're above the water
waving at me
laughing recklessly
for my weakness
that cause my own suffering

maybe i'm being sensitive
i thought you would be more
that no matter how strong i may seem to be
that how effective my poker face works
deep down
i'm no stronger than you
and after all
i'm just a newbie in this tough adult world
i'm just a girl
and maybe
i'm also nothing to you