seriously,
bitch,
your opinion is one of the worst
oh, just because we
can't
satisfy everyone,
we don't have to apologize?
AT ALL?
FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Bye bye

honestly, i dont really know you

because you and i barely talk

you're there & i'm here

and

i dont intend to either

because

what they said about you


i may be unfair in judgment

but

i dont matter too much to you anyway

Who R U?

who are you to judge me?

who are you to say i’m wrong?

who are you to despise me?

who are you to backstab me?

who are you to hurt me?

who are you to tear me down?

you’re nobody

forgetting you

Dear Husband

dear husband,

i'm waiting for you

to save me from here


dear husband,

you said you'll love me forever

hence, why did you left me here?


dear husband,

i am beautiful just the way i was

and i appreciate your letting me wear my wedding dress

during my funeral

after the night you stabbed me in the heart


dear husband,

i'm longing to meet you again

asking you why

asking you how

asking you when

the love we build over years

turned to such contempt

in such a short period

you've known my real

bitchy

fussy

clingy

self


dear husband,

if i know this would be the end

that you would be my bluebeard

i'd never pretend to be someone so perfect

before you

in past

Bow Down, and I'm Out, Pancake

i'll gladly accompany you to the door
and kick your ass into the darkness
stop mocking "aww, baby your so poooor"
i'm sick of you nosing around my every business



don't you know every coffee i give you
has approximately 10ml of saliva in it?
that's one of my way of saying "i hate you"
because saying it outloud may seem impolite



yes, pancake, now you're a deadmeat
your employer now know your wrongdoings
what do you think the camcorder is for
lighted on when you are drinking yourself crazy


i have to stop because writing about you
make me wanna puke onto my computer screen
which, btw worth more than bitch like you

(to be continued....)

Goodbye Letter

dear love,

i'm leaving today

after all the lies

all the beating

all the smirks

all the fake promises

i think i've had enough

no i wont be back again

because i had it all planned

i'll go to new york

and start a new life there

stacy is there, ya know

she said there's a job for me

i wont depend on you again

why should i?

i have my double degrees

i dont know what led me

to fall so deep with you

oh

and i'm wearing black today

to mourn for our dead love

believe me, it's hard

seeing it dying

i've shed enough tears

i've had enough sighing

now it's time for me to go

goodbye,

hatred & regret

Question, questions....

when it's this dark
you think i'll find light?

when i'm limping with pain
you think i'll find my saviour?

when i'm screaming at the rooftop
you think i'll find my salvation?

when i'm crying from pressure
you think i'll find the answers?


what other miracle
i can work for myself?

other than eliminating my existence
when it's not cared by even myself?

Smile

your smile is FAKE

think i don’t know?

think again

you know who you are

When I...

when i told you to wait for me

you didn’t hear me

and walk straight away

when i said i wanted a companion

you didn’t hear me

and went somewhere else

when i yelled at you for some help

you didn’t hear me

and kept doing your own work

when i sang a song just to attract your attention,

you didn’t hear me

and looked at others instead

when i made a superb joke just to make you laugh

you didn’t hear me

and stared at space like a total klutz

when i said i like you very much

you didn’t hear me

and kept looking blankly at the ceiling

when i had given so much effort which

you didn’t appreciate at all

so i gave up and walked away

I'm Sick

i’m sick of crying

for people

who actually dont give a damn about me

which in turn

why should i care for them

in the first place?

ugh, my fudged up mind

being an over-sensitive girl sux hell

i’m sick of loving

people

who deep in their heart

hates me so much my presence makes them nauseous

and to think i just realize that

god knows how stupid i was

to not know it sooner

than people of average IQ would

i’m sick of hating

of people

because frowning use too much muscle

and i’m lazy to even do that

and the annoying feeling lingers

and literally will kill me in days

fudge, why the hell

i’d want to sacrifice my should-be-all-smiles-youth

for someone like that?!

FML

no, FYL

now that i realize how stupid i was, i will contemplate on not repeating it again. because being a moronic person not only make me sad, hurt but also make me something kinda much like a looooooser. and that sux like hell. no no no. i’m changing. like a pokemon when it evolves. i’m not sinking myself deeper in this shit that created itself. well, better that it create itself sooner coz if it’s too late, i’ll hurt more. which means MORE energy, money, time, and my fucking tears wasted on someone like you. adiosssa.