Puffy, My Best Friend

since i was small

i always see

a small puff of cloud

near me

i named him

\ puffy \

Puffy has a pair of eyes

so black

so contrast

to his whiteness

and they never let go

of me

even for a second

i know it might sound creepy

but puffy is my best friend

we went everywhere together

we do everything together

puffy never cry or laugh

or really do anything

still he stayed with me

i never told anyone about puffy

when my father beat me

he just float there

looking at me with

his sad eyes

as i sobbed

when my mother throw

the liquor bottle at me

he just float there

looking at me with

his pitiful eyes

as i sighed

when my favourite boy

announced he likes girls

he just float there

looking at me with

his understanding eyes

as i cried

when i decided to end my life

puffy stood before me

with an unfathomable look

in his black eyes

still

i carried on

slashing the razor on my wrist

watching the blood flooded the floor

trying to keep from screaming in pain

and everything went white

just as the first time i see

puffy

i opened my eyes

and puffy was beside me

he stared at me with unspoken feeling

in front of us was light

in the light i heard children’s voices

in the light i heard joy and fun and glee

behind us was darkness

in the darkness i heard my father’s voice

in the darkness i heard my mother’s wailing

in the darkness i heard suffering

so i keep on walking

with puffy loyally by my side

always forward

never backward