Lost

i’ll just be honest

i’m tired

i’m angry

i’m upset

it’s hopeless

if fixing is too much

i’d rather leave it unfixed

because the price is too high

i dread my heart be broke

everytime

everyday

everywhere

i try to fix it

i know i can’t come close

to be what we’d been

i know i can’t force you

to be what i want you to be

i know all too well

things can’t be mend overnight

the deed is done

i’m not acquitted

i’m imprisoned

in this puzzle

of guilt

of pride

of love

of hope

so i’m giving up hope

because this is too much

for me to even comprehend

let alone taking it inside

hands down

white flag

in this game

i’m lost