Why I Write So Much?

why i write so much?
when i know nobody's reading
when i know my writing sucks
when i know nobody will understand

one
because i suck at talking to people
two
i don't like wasting people's time
just for them to listen to my ramblings
three
i'm embarrassed of pouring
my heart out
even to the people closest to me
four
some things...
are best that only me know em
five
if i tell someone
and he points out what i should do
which turn out to be the thing i DONT wanna do
i'll feel obliged to do so
i'll feel guilty if i dont
thus
i'll feel even more burdened

still
telling someone
my story
my hopes
my dreams
my insecurities
my problems
is
quite a good thing

but before i come across
another one like me
maybe...
:)