My Scarce Self Esteem

how do you heighten your self-esteem?

when all i can feel inside
is fear?
is humiliation?
is cynicism?


how can you be so sure of yourself?

when all i hear now
is whispering?
is snickering?
is mocking?


how can you stand up so straight?

when all i want to do
is running away?
is backing down?
is hiding my face?


why your smile can be so confident?

when i only have the feeling
that i'm wrong?
that i'm stupid?
that i'm nothing?