my escape

i'm sick with

the fact that

in order to escape

from my life

i have to turn to unnatural parks

to overcrowded malls

to the dark cinemas and arcades

to deafening silence of my own room

sometimes

i wonder what it feels like

to escape

by running into the middle of 

nowhere, nothing but

grasses and sky

ground and stars

nature and me

becoming like Heidi

in midst of Alps

i wonder how it would feel