Thursday, April 14, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
does she realize his glance means so much more?
it was daily occurence
they see each other everyday
she was naive
he was lost, in life
they look like they come from two different world
sure thing
men come from mars, women from venus
but he and she
depict the length, greater as if
she was afraid of him
the way he gazed, like a glare
he was afraid of her
of hurting the frail glassy heart
when his gaze means so much more
what was him to do
when all she want to do is
walking away from him?
this is all about
Fictional,
love,
Sad stanzas
Sunday, April 10, 2011
どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう?
i had done everything i could
forgetting you
ignoring you
reminding myself over and over again
this is not right
but still in my lonely days
remembering you
your sweet smile
your sharp gaze
your nonchalant words
i couldn't help myself
my tears are wasted again
my hopes are pouring again
my fears are piling again
and
my love for you bloom again
this is all about
Fictional,
Friendship,
Frustrated,
Longing Stanzas,
love
you, my dear, are unnecessarily cute
i wish you would stop
messing things around
since we live together
i couldn't not bother
you leave your things
everywhere you like
shades on the mat?
lipstick on the bed?
that's unnecessarily cute
don't want you to be prim
and proper
teru teru bozu
little girl hung the doll
her eyes full of hope
her smile full of anxiety
hoping tomorrow
sun will shine
she can go out
the last time
the last time
before darkness
invite her away
no one knows
but she knows
Saturday, April 9, 2011
i wish i just have to close my eyes to get you out of my mind
this is all about
Fictional,
hope,
love,
Sad stanzas
love is blind
but i still can see
what the consequences will be
because my eyes is opened
though my heart is fried
if only my radar was strong enough
i would have known i was the last
on his priority list
i would have known the sweet lilac smell
wasn't from his perfume stall
i would have guessed his being cold
was a sign of rejection
i would have known he had someone else
a man he keep in the closet
i should have known
he was after my best friend after all
i hated the act of cheating
it's the biggest sin a partner could commit
when the trust is gone, what's left behind?
doubt,
regret,
or
rage?
perhaps all of them.
tribute to 'cappuccino'
though i do altered the storyline
i just took the theme :)
Friday, April 8, 2011
it was a good friday, though not a real party
still it's a precious memories
between me and
you two
my first time drumming the tension away
(to! to! to! te! to! to! totototototototototo TE! XD)
my first time trying to climb against the escalator
(.... and failed badly X))
my first time genuinely having fun in a >2 outing
my first time hitting balls onto a screen
(and killed many many annoying cockroaches)
my first time having KFC bucket
(i always had individual set)
thanks to you two
i now
have a memorable time this time of the year
have a memorable time this time of the year
:)
why are you here?
i am here to love you
i am here not to fall in love with you
keep that in mind
i'll be loving
but i'm not a lover
babe
if you're not here
i'll tell you everything
because inside me everything is twisted
and i'm afraid you can't look at me the same
if only
it's a rant, better not read it, excuse me, i dont have a diary : it's not a good night
not because of the assignment, apparently i managed to get it done, but after reading this manga.... >_>
it's not usual that reading such material can depress me, but 'cappuccino' really did it. it's supposed to bring me the theory of 'hope after the darkness' but now i see darkness all around me :(
and i have another two... burdens inside my head. apparently i made it up myself, due to my nature which likes things 10000000 times more complicated than what they really are <_<
so tonight's not a good night
if i can do it
*IF*
*i'd rather got wasted beneath the shimmering light
*jumping madness around the dancefloor
*cried my heart out before my BFF which due to current circumstance it's something equalified to NADA
*run around the streets like a crazy bitch
if there's no rapist or snatchers or freaks i would've been able to do the last part
*F*CK THEM* for making my life harder to cope
it's not usual that reading such material can depress me, but 'cappuccino' really did it. it's supposed to bring me the theory of 'hope after the darkness' but now i see darkness all around me :(
and i have another two... burdens inside my head. apparently i made it up myself, due to my nature which likes things 10000000 times more complicated than what they really are <_<
so tonight's not a good night
if i can do it
*IF*
*i'd rather got wasted beneath the shimmering light
*jumping madness around the dancefloor
*cried my heart out before my BFF which due to current circumstance it's something equalified to NADA
*run around the streets like a crazy bitch
if there's no rapist or snatchers or freaks i would've been able to do the last part
*F*CK THEM* for making my life harder to cope
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
it's just like a pair of new jeans
when i first saw you
i was captivated
you're the best
and i look good with you
i chose you
i brought you home
i pick you over others
i took good care of you
while you make me feel oh-so pretty
but one day
you just stop
either i'm getting fatter
or the tear on the knee is too big
or a bottle of ink spilled onto you
so
i couldn't count on you anymore
that's how it is
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
my first malay language post
and i'm gonna spend it reflecting something not good.
makin pikir makin nak marah.
tak pikir rase tercabar pulak.
kat ko aku nak cakap 2 perkataan je la.
k**** **o
aku tak kacau hidup ko dah la.
ko pehal nak menghanjeng aku pulak.
aku sebab malas nak gado2 la
aku buat bodo je
kalo dah benci tu buat la cara benci
takyah la nak ingat kat aku lagi
melainkan hal-hal keje
ko ingat aku batak sangat ke terhegeh-hegeh nak tegur ko?
sebab ni tugas aku jadi aku kene la ingatkan.
memang salah aku la hubungan kite tak baik
memang aku la yang jahat
dah tu?
perlu ke ko nak buat aku marah?
kalo nak bergurau pun, AKU? motif?
perlu ke aku nak berdendam ngan ko?
tak perlu pun
motif sangat aku letak bende ni kat blog
lantak la
kene la luahkan
penat aku simpan
so i guess that all
fuh~
makin pikir makin nak marah.
tak pikir rase tercabar pulak.
kat ko aku nak cakap 2 perkataan je la.
k**** **o
aku tak kacau hidup ko dah la.
ko pehal nak menghanjeng aku pulak.
aku sebab malas nak gado2 la
aku buat bodo je
kalo dah benci tu buat la cara benci
takyah la nak ingat kat aku lagi
melainkan hal-hal keje
ko ingat aku batak sangat ke terhegeh-hegeh nak tegur ko?
sebab ni tugas aku jadi aku kene la ingatkan.
memang salah aku la hubungan kite tak baik
memang aku la yang jahat
dah tu?
perlu ke ko nak buat aku marah?
kalo nak bergurau pun, AKU? motif?
perlu ke aku nak berdendam ngan ko?
tak perlu pun
motif sangat aku letak bende ni kat blog
lantak la
kene la luahkan
penat aku simpan
so i guess that all
fuh~
Monday, April 4, 2011
i didn't disturb you, hell i've not said anything to you
and you still have the urge to joke me around?
like i'm still someone you know very well?
excuse me
like i'm still someone you know very well?
excuse me
i wish i'm on the dance floor right at this moment
i wish i'm on the dance floor
right at this moment
jump around as high as i like
tilted my head anyhow i like
sweating the rage away
washing the fear away
welcoming sins my way
i wish he would let me be there
instead where i am now
trembling with disgust
fuming with chaos
alone
but
ain't all eventually come my way?
if i meant yes
it will be yes
no?
but i must set the stage right
be more of a person than a wallflower
find a few nonsensical friends
prepare myself for the big night
the night i will strut
on the dance floor
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
i can't believe it's that time of the year
when the season does come
and the affection ripen
i may offend some
but please, don't
i didn't want to influence people
or something
and obviously, i'm bad at it
so quit bothering
when you see me
and what i'm doing
if you hate it
don't bother looking
k
thnx
bye
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