Thoughts

anyone reading

In the Fish Bowl

would know the conflict
between A.K. and O.D



it surprised me
at first the situation seemed
so far
so distant
from me
but now as i walk past
the roads
and days
i could not help but feeling
that i hope it will end
back to the good ole days

i'm not suffering
from now
but i just kinda
miss then

what if things went back
at then
and i wish it was back
to now?
i'll be deemed as ungrateful
being given the taste
of both world
and still can't get enough

perhaps
i should just let things be
they are always meant to be
maybe
now
is what
it meant to be

sincerely mine, mint

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

true
i like to stay quiet
in a dark corner
doing things by myself
but
it doesn't mean i'm a loner
unattached
to my peers
sure
sometimes i'd be glad to do just that
but other times
it's just
i need them
bliss is not ALWAYS
about ignorance
it's also
about
being involved
though there's always risk
of being
miffed
hurted
mocked
but life itself is a gamble
why not just as well
gamble on everything?

when i was small
friends are VERY important
i felt as if i cant live without them
then
i had to move a lot
from THE area to THAT area
from THAT area to THIS area

and friends are lost
and i was hurt

that's when i decided
to change
still, i appreciate companions
but i dare not looking at them
with the look
i used to use long ago

because i'm afraid of being hurt
and hurting others
though i know
i'm always doing just that
inevitably
at times words and actions just flow out
without me rationalizing it just yet

separated yet united
go figure

sincerely mine,

mint

Ruang Rindu by Letto

Di daun yang ikut mengalir lembut
Terbawa sungai ke ujung mata
Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta
Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada

Jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia
Terasa hangat oh didalam hati
Kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu
Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi




Tak pernah kuragu dan selalu kuingat
Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat
Ku saat itu takut mencari makna
Tumbuhkan rasa yang sesakkan dada



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Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja
Semua kuterima apa adanya
Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam
Di ruang rindu kita bertemu

Silence

does she
always have things to say
when she came for you?
when she called you?
when she texted you?

when all she wanted to know
is
are you safe?
are you feeling okay?
do you still love her
the way she loved you?

you know how she was built
of silence
of listener's complex
of speechlessness
of sealed lips

When Tears Came

i really couldnt explain why
i cannot refrain from
crying like a child
everytime the mother
uttered word by word
of
love
acceptance
to her son

i wonder
am i able to do
just the same
if
the circumstance fall
to me?

Let. Me. Be.

i know
when the sky is dark
it's easy to see the stars
that will guide me
to the place i should be

i know
when it's daylight
i can't see the stars
i'm left alone
in the middle of the road

i know
i'm losing it all
as i stand here in daylight
when it's too bright
for me to see
what's wrong
and
what's right

but
in the daylight
i find my joy
i find my will to live
i find the meaning of life
i find friends
i find family
brothers
sisters
uncles

in the daylight
i can see
what is really happening
with my eyes
along with other senses
i can think clearly
i can pick my own rationale

not when it's dark
i can only rely on the voices telling me the truth
as i am blinded by the darkness
not seeing anything
not assured of everything
suffocated by the darkness that bind

so
let me be
here
i need to be here
desperately
it has been years
and i'm still here
i know people trying to drag me out
but i'm not moving
my affection is strong
my love still burning
i can't let go

let me be
lost
in this daylight

I Hate You!

Today, I wanna slap someone in the face
but I dont have the
courage to.
FML

I don't mean to be bitchy or something, I just need to get the steam off my head. And it's my 'canvas' here anyway, so dont bother reading if you don't feel like it.

I just hate this person too much! From the first time I see her, up until this moment.....




I dont know if my view on her is biased due to my hatred, but I feel NOTHING that she has ever given me is useful. They are all rubbish! Trifle! Useless!




When she stepped into the same room, I instantly suffocated. I need the necessary element of air only available when she is NOT there!



I cringed when I hear her voice. I hate it! VERY! I'd rather she just write something to me rather than speaking DIRECTLY to me.





When she try (rather unsuccessfully) to pull out her sense
of humor, I can help but smirk. Complete with "yeah, whatever" It's like a crime because it only force people to laugh just to flatter her.
::yikes::
Definitely and literally a torture

My::Music::Shuffle::My::Life

OK.... So I kinda got this thing from Eizhar's blog, and it has been a long time since I'd done anything random like this, which I miss badly! Hehehe....I dont know everyone, like, had thorough with this activity but what the hell? I"M DOING IT NOW! XD

So, how to do this thing?

First, set your music player to shuffle mode

Next, answer the question with the title, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT IS! :D

So, here's my result

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Twist Me Around - Mocca
who doesnt like a hug regardless when he/she is happy AND down? I'd love too LOL

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Never Let You Go - Justin Bieber
hehehe I dont know if I'm a psycho that wont let people go... But I can be quite just that... hehehe Or is it peeps that wont let me off their mind? geez.... I doubt THAT! XD


WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Good Girls Gone Bad - Cobra Starship ft. Leighton Meester
woohoo!!!!! the song tells it alllllllllllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
That's What you Get - Paramore
hahaha yeah, absolutely what I'm feeling today is the 'fruit' of what I had been doing the previous days


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Down Like That - T.I. ft. Fergie
Errrrrr........

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
We Are Golden - Mika
we are golden peeps! WOOT! WOOT!

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Kau Kekasihku - Siti Nurhaliza
Errrrrmmmmmmmmmmmm...... Like, seriously? Hahaha!

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Takes One To Know One - Katy Perry
Uh, wow. Fathomable.... :)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Walking in The Air - Declan Galbraith
is this the sarcastic ways of fate trying to tell me to stop imagining things? LOL! Anyway, never really know the lyric and the meaning of the song, so ..... ::shrugs::


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Imagine - Declan Galbraith
LOL i dont see the connection, like, AT ALL! XD

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Pain Of Love - Tokio Hotel
Never really know the song, but OUCH!!! keeping up with the person we love, trying to satisfy them (figuratively) is a hard work .... ::nods::

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Do I - Luke Bryan
LOL again, I dont see the connection!!!!!! I'm not doubtful at all!!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Entahkan Jadi Entahkan Tidak - SM Salim ft Siti Nurhaliza
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Ay Amor (Rosalinda) - Thalia
love this song!!! dance with me, sweetheart :)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Amazing Grace - Declan Galbraith
::speechless:: i shouldnt even let others know I listen to songs like this, but ::shrugs:: i dont give a damn regarding to critics of my choice of music. my ears, my interpretation, my mind.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Disgusting - Miranda Cosgrove
AAAWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
America's Suiteheart - Fallout Boy
Hahahhahahahahahaahahahahahhahahahahahhahaha! maybe it's because they are extremely cute??????!!!!!!! :3

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
The Fame - Lady Gaga
lolololololololololololololololololloollooloooolollollollolollollollolZZZZZZZ!!!!!!! sssssssssshhhhh..... can you keep this secret? hehehe

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Back To The 80's - Aqua
;)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Rain - Mika
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..........................................


WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Hold On - Jonas Brothers
yea, hold on..... the internet connection sux BIG TIME hahahahahahahahahahahahahha!!!