Cute!

orange : am i not cute?

lemon : hehehe. not saying anything

orange : i KNOW you want to say so!

lemon : XP

Reflection

it intrigued me

how even when my world

seems so dark, lifeless

but

when i look into a mirror

work myself into a (fake) smile

things instantly change

brighter, colourful


if only

if only i can bring about

such change out in reality

i would have been much happier

and not staring at those

sharp, new razor blades

as i'm writing this note

Question, questions....

when it's this dark
you think i'll find light?

when i'm limping with pain
you think i'll find my saviour?

when i'm screaming at the rooftop
you think i'll find my salvation?

when i'm crying from pressure
you think i'll find the answers?


what other miracle
i can work for myself?

other than eliminating my existence
when it's not cared by even myself?

A Homeless Man

they stare at me intently
full of mocking desire
like i'm a freak

they don't know the situation
they're oblivious to
the real meaning of life

they haven't limped
through the hardship
life can throw your way

yes
i'm sleeping in boxes
next to the road

yes
i'm wearing old clothes
my hair in disarray


yes
i've been through all life
becoming rich to becoming poor
being respected to being mocked
i've tasted them all

and i am proud for that

and
i dont live by begging
my secretary gives me money
on weekly basis
the moment she come to me
by the roadside
to ask about some major decision
regarding the company
i own

yes
dont judge a book by its cover
mine is all dark and gloomy
the gold is hidden between the pages

Regrets and Anger

somehow
i woke up this morning
thinking
about the last paper
and
i feel stressed
like
i didn't do my best
but
i did
and
now all i can do
is
keeping my finger crossed
and
pray for the best

My Wife

every morning, as i
get ready for work
the smell would be there
overwhelmingly
strongly

::awful::

that was hers,
my wife, as usual
baking cookies for me
dark chocolate
chocolate chips
everything choc
because she knows what i love

the cookies are ::terrible::
she just learnt
how to make them
after we were married
but as i bite
the little brown pieces
with her round eyes staring
i can't help but
smile and nod
my approval
she would smile and
kissed my cheek

i just hope one day
she will taste the cookies
and know
she baked them far too long
but if she doesn't
it's okay
i'll get accustomed to the
slightly burnt taste
.
.
.
i guess?

Ain't You Mister Mister....

::grins::

hey mister mister
sorry if i sound
too demanding
didn't mean to
didn't want to
didn't need to

coz

you see mister mister
i just dont wanna ruin
something i've build
so careful

you see mister mister
you can call it paranoia
but ti justify
i just lose a castle
which i thought was of iron
which actually was of paper

::pfft::

so mister mister
no need to worry
no need to divide
yourself
you time
whatever
coz
mister mister
i'm tired of another fight
of another cold shoulder
one is enough
two is too much
three will kill me
so i want to keep our
friendship
strong
no waves
no shatter
no cracks

i'm happy i could love him
as freely as i could once
so i would be just happier
to be able to love you
as free as i can now

mister mister
frequent "hi" would be enough
occasional ramble could be good
snickering would be nice
no need secrets
no need whispers
coz i know
some others deserve it
not me

so mister mister
dont think too much
:P

What Do I Do....

what do i do
when i love someone too much
it's hard to let go?

what do i do
when he expect so much from me
when i'm not sure
even for myself
whether i'm able
to be the woman
he wanted me to be?

what do i do
when someone loves one too much
it's hard for him
to watch her walk away?

what do i do
when i can't do anything
to stop someone i love
from walking away?

what do i do
when i watch her getting hurt
by her closest pals
helpless
speechless?

what do i do
when she cried
having to let her first love
go away
right before her eyes?

what do i do
when life has its own plan
fate has its own twist
and i'm in no power
of changing
what is happening
what will happen
what had happened?

Bitches

bitches don't just happen.. they are made.
by parents more wicked than their offspring

(deeya, 2010)

Hachiko (still in my mind)

hachiko is a dog

who will wait for its master

front of train station

daily, one day

the master died at workplace

but hachiko keep waiting

throughout the year and

next years to come

it waited patiently

some may say

“what a dumb dog”

some may say

“total waste of life”

but dont we forget

hachiko’s a dog

but it has

SENSE OF LOYALTY

more than some people

it’s better than them

...

where can i get my hachiko?

Love

knowing myself

i dont mind, pain

i’ve had my share

but i hope you

wont hurt her

because she loves you

more than she does to me

appreciate it

bitch

Halloween

so far,

this is my favorite

image for this year’s

Halloween

so mysterious

so gorgeous

so tempting

so creepy

SO HALLOWEEN!

aww! man...

too bad we cant hold any Halloween partay!

i’ll just stay with ‘witch’

thank you

X)

i hate u XD mwah haha

it makes me wonder

in my courtship there’ll be

fight

tears

quarrel

but what is it makes

me run back to him

every single time?