mr k,
making up with you
is
the hardest
yet the best
decision 
i've ever made

どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう?

i had done everything i could

forgetting you

ignoring you

reminding myself over and over again

this is not right

but still in my lonely days

remembering you

your sweet smile

your sharp gaze

your nonchalant words

i couldn't help myself

 my tears are wasted again

my hopes are pouring again

my fears are piling again

and

my love for you bloom again

it was a good friday, though not a real party

still it's a precious memories

between me and 

you two

my first time drumming the tension away

(to! to! to! te! to! to! totototototototototo TE! XD)

my first time trying to climb against the escalator

(.... and failed badly X))

my first time genuinely having fun in a >2 outing

my first time hitting balls onto a screen

(and killed many many annoying cockroaches)

my first time having KFC bucket

(i always had individual set) 

thanks to you two

i now
have a memorable time this time of the year

:)

it's just like a pair of new jeans

when i first saw you

i was captivated

you're the best

and i look good with you

i chose you

i brought you home

i pick you over others

i took good care of you

while you make me feel oh-so pretty

but one day

you just stop

either i'm getting fatter

or the tear on the knee is too big

or a bottle of ink spilled onto you

so

i couldn't count on you anymore

that's how it is

'us' is just like a bubble, when i'm expecting it to last, it popped. and smeared my face.

summer dip

you smiled shyly

while brushing the golden locks off

your sweat-covered face

"come on

it's just us girls

and mother nature"

said Cherry

i just nodded

while quietly undoing the buttons

of my blue summer dress

well, it is good weather
with just right amount of

heat and moisture

it's a long journey here

and you figured

actually, what i think you figured

we can't just waste this time

just to add fats and calories into our system

you took off you pretty little hat

and with blushed cheeks

lowered the strapless dress so slowly

while Cherry cheekily

glued her eyes on your skin

as more and more exposed

when everyone's ready

off we go

An Evening

look, honey

she brought you an umbrella

why?

because you and her

are best friends forever

she got your back 

and you got hers

now that it's raining more than ever

please know that you'll still have each other

you can stay under her umbrella

and whisper whatever you want to hear

and go wherever you want to go

*smiles* 

 

but be sure to get back before the sun set

or your father will get mad

he'd want his little daughter to be home

when he's here, tired and need your affection

*nods*

*kiss*

*waves goodbye*

For Someone There

hey there,

i'm not good with words

let alone saying them

but, do you know

when i see you sad

it makes me feel bad

like stabs in the heart, no less


i hope you stay strong

because you are, for holding on this long

you've gone through the art of being replaced

you've gone through the joy of friendship

you've felt what a bitch a girl's heart can be


you're strong

you can get over this

you can walk away and,

you can find happiness

someplace other

somewhere only God knows

:)

In My Opinion...

IT'S JUST PLAIN DUMB.

YOU AIN'T NO PLAYER IN THIS GAME

CALLED LIFE,

WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHOOSE

A KEEPER.

BUT WHO AM I TO SAY?

SILENCE, ONLY I MAY.


i cant take care of you anymore

so take care of yourself more

too sweet to see

her puppy-like eyes on you

her pout meant for you

her smile replying your mean jokes

her gentle pat on your arms

is all too sweet to see

though they say

you wont last forever

but those moments

stick in our mind forever

How To Stop Hating Some People?

by forgetting them obviously

or

making up, if you're good at it

Brand New Day

i wish you a lot of things

because i know you deserve them



someone that help you too

someone that appreciate you

someone that dont forget you

someone that dont just dump you

someone that believe in you

someone that prioritize you

someone that makes you smile


and someone else

who loves you back

who appreciate you

who takes care of you

who makes you laugh

who will make you the happiest girl ever


though they may come a little bit late

i hope you dont give up waiting

because you deserve them


you know who you are

To Mr. Kay....

thanks for tonight

i enjoy talking to you

and

i'm glad

i caught you before you fade away

completely from my life

thanks for the second chance



and i know you hated me calling you

Mr. Kay

but hun

nobody's really reading this blog

without not understanding it

so no worries

i'll zip my (as if) b*tchy mouth

on the outside



so

happy holiday

in Korea world

and take care

Mr. Kay

Of Boredom and Funny Creativity

thank god you're here

the calligraphy class nearly killed me

of excessive boredom

aa, why are you here?

no idea why i'm here either

anyway, the teacher's gone

something's wrong with his stomach

perhaps the soup he ate just now is spoiled

mom asked me to throw the soup away

or give it to him today?

we two have no idea, so

let me make your face a bit different

you know, to surprise dad

he's coming home today

so let's have some fun
while we have the chance

Her Favourite Guy

it's embarrassing

but she have to admit

his hands own more art

his hands have more skills

his hands move more delicate

compared to hers

cold

hard

stiff

albeit the beautiful long fingers

albeit the pretty pink nails

albeit the soft smooth skin


still

he won, because he knows well

how to beautify

how to decorate

how to shade

a woman's face


and for that

she doesn't mind

of losing

because in the end


the flawless skin

pink blushed cheeks

deep shaded jaw

carefully permed hair

kissable shiny lips

bold blackened eyes

are all hers to have


his angelic touch
is hers and hers only

Cute!

orange : am i not cute?

lemon : hehehe. not saying anything

orange : i KNOW you want to say so!

lemon : XP

Ain't You Mister Mister....

::grins::

hey mister mister
sorry if i sound
too demanding
didn't mean to
didn't want to
didn't need to

coz

you see mister mister
i just dont wanna ruin
something i've build
so careful

you see mister mister
you can call it paranoia
but ti justify
i just lose a castle
which i thought was of iron
which actually was of paper

::pfft::

so mister mister
no need to worry
no need to divide
yourself
you time
whatever
coz
mister mister
i'm tired of another fight
of another cold shoulder
one is enough
two is too much
three will kill me
so i want to keep our
friendship
strong
no waves
no shatter
no cracks

i'm happy i could love him
as freely as i could once
so i would be just happier
to be able to love you
as free as i can now

mister mister
frequent "hi" would be enough
occasional ramble could be good
snickering would be nice
no need secrets
no need whispers
coz i know
some others deserve it
not me

so mister mister
dont think too much
:P

What Do I Do....

what do i do
when i love someone too much
it's hard to let go?

what do i do
when he expect so much from me
when i'm not sure
even for myself
whether i'm able
to be the woman
he wanted me to be?

what do i do
when someone loves one too much
it's hard for him
to watch her walk away?

what do i do
when i can't do anything
to stop someone i love
from walking away?

what do i do
when i watch her getting hurt
by her closest pals
helpless
speechless?

what do i do
when she cried
having to let her first love
go away
right before her eyes?

what do i do
when life has its own plan
fate has its own twist
and i'm in no power
of changing
what is happening
what will happen
what had happened?

Hachiko (still in my mind)

hachiko is a dog

who will wait for its master

front of train station

daily, one day

the master died at workplace

but hachiko keep waiting

throughout the year and

next years to come

it waited patiently

some may say

“what a dumb dog”

some may say

“total waste of life”

but dont we forget

hachiko’s a dog

but it has

SENSE OF LOYALTY

more than some people

it’s better than them

...

where can i get my hachiko?

Love

knowing myself

i dont mind, pain

i’ve had my share

but i hope you

wont hurt her

because she loves you

more than she does to me

appreciate it

bitch