where stars don't shine

i live in a world

where the stars don't shine

where the lands are barren

where happiness is nonexistant

i live during the time

when the smiles are fake

when what's important is authority

when everyone wants to be somebody

i live here in midst of people

who love lying

who love breaking people's heart

who love... only themselves

 

my pair in class

the first time i saw you

i was captivated by your beauty

drowned in your eyes so blue

drugged by your lips red as cherry

we were meant to sit together

and i grasped the chance to know you better

but after weeks of sitting next to each other

you're no longer a girl who could make me stutter

 but still

a girl i would chase after

the one i love the most

the one i love the most

was neither daddy nor mummy

was neither bobby nor sandy

but among us, she is the littlest

the one i love the most

well, you can say my love is unwelcomed

little time she would talk to me, the rest frowned

and that was nothing that i can boast

the one i love the most

stared blankly when i left for summer camp

i maybe mistaken but her cheeks looked damp

 nonetheless, i went there, thoroughly abused

the one i love the most

when i get home after a century of absence

jump at me with in her blue pools the happiest glance

mummy said the whole time i was badly missed

the one i love the most

smiled as her face stuck onto my chest

this moment was one i love the best

knowing his little sister also love him 'est among the rest

 

i guess.......

i guess it's okay

it's not like i have any use to you

and i'm certainly not fun to be with

neither can i make you as happy

those new barbie dolls

and handsome ken dolls

are way better

than the old-fashioned teddy bear

i am

i have gotten used to be thrown away 

when i bore the people

and i am familiarized with sweet sweet words

they say right before they stepped

on my heart, nonetheless

and i have few experiences

of being heart-broken

so i guess it's okay

for you to ditch me too

dont give me hope

     when you know damn well

you can't fulfill it
 

in midst of nothingness

when i say i'm happy

they will say "grow up!"

when i say i'm sad

they will say "come on!"

when i say i'm scared

they will say "what a chicken!"

when i say i'm lonely

they will leave me by myself

so what am i to do

in midst of nothingness

i create another world

of unreached happiness and companies

where there

i don't have to speak

and be rejected

subtly

or

directly

which both

'

'

'

hurt

my favourite scene from my favourite movie

when can i be as wise-ass and as bitchy as this girl?

oh well, i guess.... IN MY DREAMS

 

when he was a little boy...

a bubbly lad of six

of no worries

of no burden

he likes to wander alone

anticipating trifles of nature

which evening will it rain?

when will the tree bear fruits?

and he'd bring with him a stack of papers

carefully wrapped in plastic

just in case

and he'd sit so high on the building

 where, it doesn't matter

when, he doesn't care

how, only he knew

and he's carefully write words

beautiful words he heard

from mother to father

from sister to brother

from natasha to him

onto the pieces of papers

with them, he crafted airplanes

though with no engines

they flew so high

though with no use

they made the day more beautiful to some

How True....

how true it can be 

that

it’s better to have nobody

than to have someone who is half here

or doesn’t want to be here at all

unfortunately

a lot of people is that kind

it's just the same with those

who left, merrily

when they found perfect companies

me?

been there

(AM being there NOW)

done that

 

Cupid's Crash

it's just 

frustrating

watching

the plots i've been 

creating

awaiting

in the end it's just

end

gone

:(

 

My Favourite Duo

Imagine

imagine you and him

imagine there's no another her

imagine what you two would've been

i said


imagine, if things are different

in midst of tears, imagination is all i have

he said

How To Make He Smile XD

Tagged : Day One

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1) i think you're pulling away from me.

2) i'm sorry i can't choose any side.

3) you're the sweetest girl i've ever meet in my life.

4) i have no vengeance, the pain is just... there. sorry.

5) you know i love you the most of all :)

6) you're a legend that never ceased to inspire me.

7) your smug face makes me want to puke

8) i can't believe you're one of us, really.

9) i still love you but i'm too afraid to contact you back. have you forgotten me?

10) you're my inspiration, from the the old times until now.

my life began when....

they have many says

but, for me



my life began when

her soft lips touched my head

when her warmth of eternal love

transferred to me

as soon as

she caught the first sight of me

a frail creature, crying

in the arms of nice strangers



her love, and his love

made me alive