::Sigh::

::sigh::
something is so wrong
maybe it's me
maybe it's this
maybe it's that
but never you

get frigging ready
give your frigging energy
just frigging do this
just frigging do that
god i hate
this

i'm mad at everything
just because one thing
one fucking thing
that is fucking unimportant at all
fuck

there i said it

Mint's Guy List (1)

Last week, had just finished watching an old movie "American Beauty". I read the synopsis before and wasn't really hoping for anything, you know, mesmerizing. My intention of watching it is just because some article I found citing the movie as.... something I forgot. But I really wasn't expecting anything. Really. Except, well, maybe a proper and interesting story line, perhaps that's why the movie become some's favourite.

My, my, my.... how WRONG I was.

Because I write this under the title of Guy List, of course i found a new gem in the movie. XD Well, the term 'new' is only applicable to me, I think. I'm quite outdated when it comes to movies. X)

Well, it's Ben Westley acting as Ricky. He's lol, quite a psycho in this movie, a hot one nevertheless. His eyes are really enticing, he nearly beat the two guys on my top list for beautiful eyes! XD And his nonchalant attitude succeedingly fished out a long long "AWWWWW" from me, wishing if I can just be like him, despite the coward 'me' I had to have in daily basis. His hair is .... wait, I dont know what it is and I'm lazy to google it, but it seems like the cut that is given to military people. Whatever the name is. Well, that haircut suit him very well! I looooooove this guy, but now that he's older.... Let's just say that I looooooove him only at those time around the movie production. Hihihi.

This is him! XD

p/s: My policy of only liking young, hot man is only applicable for celebrities, and NOT to friends, relatives, and YOU my love =)

Harvest Season... AGAIN!!!!

thanks
to my
friend
i now
have the
HARVEST MOON
boy version!
YAY!!!

i intend to
have
relaxed
peaceful
life
and to
woo
(guess who?)
ANN!!!

XD

Gypsy

Broke my heart
Down the road
Spent the weekend
Sewing the pieces back on

Friends and thoughts pass me by
Walking gets too boring
When you learn how to fly

Not the homecoming kind
Take the top off
And who knows what you might find

Won't confess all my sins
You can bet I'll try it
But I can't always win


'Cause I'm a gypsy
Are you coming with me?
I might steal your clothes
And wear them if they fit me
I never made agreements
Just like a gypsy
And I won't back down
'Cause life's already bit me
And I won't cry
I'm too young to die
If you're gonna quit me
'Cause I'm a gypsy

I can't hide
what I've done
Scars remind me
Of just how far that I've come
To whom it may concern
Only run with scissors
When you want to get hurt


I said hey you
You're no fool
If you say 'NO'
Ain't it just the way life goes?
People fear what they don't know
Come along for the ride
Come along for the ride

Honey Homey Disturbed by Terrorists

when i'm home
i felt
this sense
of
relax
enjoy
peace
loved
oh, how i love being here

i love my parents
my siblings, err...
sometimes i hate 'em
(LOL)
but these are my families
and i love them
never-the-less

to those people
who are not
satisfied
with us
well guess what?
you can just
a) FUCK OFF
...or...
b) GO TO HELL
...maybe...
c) MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS
...and...
d)LEAVE US ALONE
...better yet...
e) ALL OF ABOVE

we can live without you
it's not like
our life depend on you guys
eew..
talk about
PERASAN!

tee-hee-
:P

Baila Baila

apparently
nobody of MiniLyric-ers
has heard of the song
Baila Baila
sung by
Angela Via
so i'm forced to made it myself
LOL
just whatever so
i can memorize that stuff

the song
is just
*RAWWWWRRR*
i love it
and the dance too
performed by katee and joshua
my fav couple in sytycd





the song
it's wild
it's catchy
it's naughty
it's
SO NOT ME
but
opposites DO attract
tee-hee :)

Mad

i'm not in
the best mood
so
when you raised your voice
and it's directed to me
i'm
damn
f*cking
frigging
really really really
PISSED OFF!!!

just...
gimme some time off
*humph*

For One More Day

recently
i've read this book
For One More Day
by this handsome writer
with this cunning wit
lol i love it

but really
this book makes me
ponder and think and wonder
what would become of
me
once i lost my loved ones
do i
shrivel like dead leaves, or
move on like a moving ship, or
harden inside like a cocoon?

i know which i should
but
can i?

My Only Escape

i've had
questions
questions
and other questions
but
no answer at all

things get confusing
which prove
true enough
there's bliss
in
ignorance

still
there's a feeling
lies there
somewhere
in my head
voices
guilt
rage

peace
can only
i have by
PAIN
no matter
how much
i hate each strike
still
that
is the only
cure
escape
of this frigging rage

You and Me : )

What day is it?

And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything you do is beautiful
Everything you do is right

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

"You and Me by Lifehouse"

18 April's Macbeth Play Practice

LOL
this evening
is
simply
hilarious

Farah, our director
sorry
for our playfulness
but
indeed
sometimes times like
that
is very much
needed

the "effing" games
keep going on and on and on
i couldn't help but
play along
and laugh together
just...
being teenagers again
with dirty minds
and dirty words
even though
it's wrong
but
it could be right

thanks my friends
glad to have
this evening
with
you
guys

::smiles::

Cease to Care, Not Anymore

am i wrong?

am i bad?

for not wanting to care
to know
what the fuck is wrong with you

how come you've changed so much
now?
where's the cheery person?
dead?
rot?
confined?
you used to smile more than me
where is it?
you chattered more than me?
where's your words?
gone?
or you're making it so?

not only the changes
the other cause
is
your
disappearances
yep, i may not care
where the fuck you go
you can
but others are apprehensive
and i hate interrogative
situation
asking
where'd she go?
where is she?

and
how many people you intend to hurt?
to ignore?
even her?
even her???!
you can shout your love
what the hell
but look who's you're with
every second
every minute of your waking minutes
no other right?
it's not accusation
but
just dont go around
hurting my friends
i've given up hope
on 'that'
you know
all yours
why wasting it all away?
now

i'm just
ceased to care
about you now

Honey

sometimes
at times like this
i wanna cry
on your shoulders
and just pour my heart out
that
is what i dream of
but no such
audacity
to do
so

because
i'm just a child
with childish problems
and childish issues
which
is not as important
as the challenges you have
in the adult world

moreover
my mind
is kinda scattered
i dont know
what and which to tell
what and which NOT to tell
things are simple
but in my head
it's intricate

still
i just cant
bear with this fear
of rejection from you
so
i
shut
my
mouth
up

and let it all out
with every breath i let go
with every smash of my fist
with every clench of my jaw
with every line on my arms
with every scream i muffled
with every profanity i could say
with every stomp on the ground
with everything i can do
yet
nothing i can do
to make it all go
completely
::sobs::

Pain

it's oblivious
since when
pain is soothing
tears are calming
torture is relieving
but
they do
and they did
to me

at times
i am barely able to breath
my problems
their problems
choking me inside
and
the whispers
the snickers
the smirks
added salt to my wound

it's painful
you ? you ? you?
do you have any idea?

first
i'm an outcast of my own circle
i'm no longer needed
i'm useless
i'm annoying
i'm disturbing
i'm not good enough for them
i'm fucked up

second
that's disturbing
i cant even bring myself to say it
i, once
was in the very same position
but i chose
what i love the most
but here they are
undecided
yet
collisions after collisions
it's impossible there's no wounds

third
fights
mean words
the demand to choose
this or that?
which group are you in?
which one you support?

fourth
i guess
i'm a bit of Jenna
her extra of excessive empathy
i felt towards this one person
cause i know it's hurt
to be
in her place

funny
i come here
not
for all this fuss
but
that's what you get for being human
in a society
"headache"
"misery"

oops
the fifth
i miss you
very very much
:)

The Perfect Man

The perfect man is gentle

Never cruel or mean

He has a beautiful smile

And keeps his face so clean.

The perfect man likes children

And will raise them by your side

He will be a good father

As well as a good husband to his bride

The perfect man loves cooking

Cleaning and vacuuming too

He'll do anything in his power

To convey his feelings of love on to you.

The perfect man is sweet

Writing poetry from your name

He's a best friend to your mother

And kisses away your pain.

He never has made you cry

Or hurt you in any way

To hell with this endless poem

The perfect man is gay.