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time passes, the clock ticks, life goes on

but in this sugary sweetness

of a piece of life

i'd want to linger

imagining 

time to stop

hands to halt

life frozen

glee preserves

and

grief fades

to be beautiful

how does it feel to be beautiful?

to be loved at the first sight

to be adored without you even trying

to be liked just with a glimpse

even babies like perfect facial figure

thus in world the favour is much more

for beautiful people

sure, pretty people have problems too

but they dont have the additional ones

rooted from worries about looks

 

in midst the cold night

i snuck into his room

hoping for a warm sleepy cuddle

or a session of pillow talk

or maybe something else 

for the cold night

i just hope i realized before that

that i forgot

he mentioned to me before

that he switched room with his gay brother

who

after that night

would not stop saying

"i'm feeling so dirty"

complete with a glare

everytime he sees me

speak to me

don't you know it's killing me

when you stared at me down the hall

with no words out of your lips

don't you know i'm going crazy

everytime i sit in class 

and see you in front of me

don't you realize

i'm mourning

every second

i'm breathing

coz we're stuck 

in a forbidden garden

that's just

too sweet to escape from

mr k,
making up with you
is
the hardest
yet the best
decision 
i've ever made

realization

i dont really intend
to go against my faith 
or anything

i'm not a pro

i just love the artsy side 
of it

stories
manga
anime
drawing
films
imagination

and that's all
i'm just a lover
not a supporter

very sincerely written
and very consciously thought

the moment i think she is most beautiful

a very cold day

i lied on my bed
all day long
it was freezing
much to my distaste
even to set my foot 
onto the marbled floor
or to get out of the warm blanket

i peeked at the clock
five minutes to two
he should be here now
with worried look on his face
exaggerating things on his mind
on why
i missed class today
a fire?
an accident?
a mishap?
his paranoia
always amuse me
even more so
when they are 
proves
of how much he cares


 

i've always envied the scenes in the movies

 the characters always seems to be able to find a place they can call their own

some sort of a secret place

where they can lie all day

where they can scream as they like

where thay can do whatever they want

though i'm never really

always surrounded by people

such place

is a blessings

from the sneer

from the giggles

from the insults

because in their eyes

i'm no more

than just a retard

the weird ones

ones you must avoid

and leave unintended

 things i feel

not to be argued

because 

in a way

they're all right

We all have a little red bird inside us. 

Some people, 

like me, 

lock their little bird away so nothing can harm it. 

But It's best to let that little bird fly.
because
 

A bird that hasn't flown hasn't lived.

taken directly from here

when i talk to you

i was hoping for a nice talk
where i'm able to laugh or smile
a little bit
not a session for you to 
bitch about others

i know all too well
world isn't all about happiness
i learnt the hard way
but dear
if we dont create bits and pieces of
happiness of our own
wont our relationship turn sour and bitter?
from all the words you said of others?

i know you're tired
i know you're frustrated
so sometimes
i thought i'd just ask you not to call
for sometime
you can cool off
i can stay not frustrated
but because there
you're all alone
i dont have the heart to 
let you went through it all
alone

but dear
please
please
please
cut down on your
emotional frenzy
of others
when we talk
 

he looked at me again

and this time
i was wondering
if what jessie said
was true

if he does
bat for other team
why'd he still
looking my way?
jessie seemed to 
understand what i was thinking

giving me a clean kiss 
on the cheek, she
smiled at me
"he's so into you
once in a while
don't you think it's great
to have a guy friend?
don't worry
i'm yours
and you're still mine"

i get it
instantly
i looked his way
and smiled

wow... soooo true.......... : )

sometimes i wonder if

i'm drowned too deep

while you're above the water

waving at me

laughing recklessly

for my weakness

that cause my own suffering

maybe i'm being sensitive

i thought you would be more

sensitive

that no matter how strong i may seem to be

that how effective my poker face works

deep down

i'm no stronger than you

and after all

i'm just a newbie in this tough adult world

i'm just a girl

and maybe

i'm also nothing to you